心疼

juz now, my mom called me to go in her room...

she say she feel very dissapointed with her children: me, my older bro n my younger bro...
and even my dad too

now my dad having a kind of illness,
it somehow like a panic illness, he get nervous when we mention a single bad word
i am getting worried bout it
sometimes i felt tired on it...

while to both of my brother,
hope tat u all will try to listen to mama for this few year
she is getting weaker n weaker
juz so scare tht one day
i hav to live without her
although she is quiet annoying

to myself,
she say she thought daughter will be better than son
but she found out it was the same
mama, i am different from them la,ok?
y r u not trust me?
i try to achieve everything u wan me to achieve
when u say no, i juz keep quite and walk off
u seldom say yes to my wants...
u r too contolling me
n i dislike it
but, did i tell dis to u b4
no rite?
i will juz keep in deep in my heart

n stop saying that u wan to dis
wan to die
wan to die
ur thoughts are wrong
u thought if u die, everything will be settle down
but
do u think it is as easy as u think ?

i was always be the one that u wan to scold(althought i din do anything wrong)
i was always the only one that u call to tell things that u dun wan ppl to listen
n
i was always the one that make u proud
do u even think bout it?

ma...
please la...
i do love u...