lonely...

i felt lonely now...
dunno y
i am not so close to my frenz like last time...
now...
i dun like to talk
tired of talking...

haiz...
hav to change it liao

now i aim to finish my homework n assign on time
kill away my lazyness...

gambateh!!!!!!

sienz ah...

uni reopen 2mrw...
class starts at 10 n end at 4...
stress n lazy...
hope that god will bless me n kill my lazyness...

juz bak from macau n zhu hai recently...
it was a memorable trip as the weather is super hot...
n dis time i did capture a lots of pictures...
but most of them was my mom's one...
she love to takes photo...

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good nites...

random

dis is end of my second week of degree in sem 2
start use to my timetable dy...

so far so good lo
the textbook was super $$$
also dunno got use anot de...

i have to change my attitude dy...
i cannot tahan myself
he also cannot tahan me anymore...
nowadays, he burst easily...
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next week have to pass up assignment liao...
super duper fast lor...

haix
gambateh ba...

吳彤 & 羅憶詩 - 相愛不到老

super love this song...!!!



帶我走　到夢的出口
就給時間下個約定要手牽手
我知道　愛情套不牢
以為眼淚會被蒸發掉

跟我走　別等得太久
別讓愛情的保鮮慢慢的失效
回憶不再是止痛藥
最後只剩下苦澀的煎熬

﹡除了愛 (剩下期待)　我還在等待
(為什麼相愛 還讓你傷害)
等待上天給我好好安排
(擁抱時候 也隔著傷口)
其實我　在偷偷撫著傷口
(眼睜睜看著愛的溜走)
眼睜睜看著愛的溜走

明知道　相愛不到老
捨不得放開從前的味道
愛情的記號　 隨記憶消失忘掉
還說是個完美的句號

明知道　相愛得太早
只留下互相套牢的懊惱
曾經的依靠　不願意變成乞討
請相信你的好 　請記著慢慢將我忘掉

﹡REPEAT

捨不得放開從前的味道
愛情的記號　 隨記憶消失忘掉
還說是個完美的句號

明知道　相愛得太早
只留下互相套牢的懊惱
曾經的依靠　不願意變成乞討
請相信你的好 　請記著慢慢將我忘掉
我堅持的驕傲　淚水在眼角卻抹不掉

Updated

I'm still in holidays now...
But i din enjoy
Sad :(

Everyday work work work n work only
I feel jealous of my frenz

Redang...Sabah...Bangkok...shopping
Haix
But I dun have the chances to go for one...

Sad rite?

Now I really miss skol time
At least I can lepak for a while...

Dear all my frenz
How r u all now
And wat r u guys doing now?

Holidays

Juz started my holiday last Tuesday for three weeks
But I think I am going to ended it will an unhappy way
Everyday keep working n working
Feel so stressful
Phew
Going to die soon

I mIss him dy
Three days he never call me
Haix
What should I do?

Tired!!!

I will be having the first exam tomorrow...
Please save me!!!
I am juz feeling so much if stress till I almost can't breath anymore

Sorry to whoever that I scolded or hit to release my stress

Bibi...I am so sorry to u...
I juz wish that the sentence that I told u juz now is not true
But...it is true de...
I really feel tired with this dy...
Giv me more time...ok?
I will sure overcome it

Random...

To sumone...

My life started to change when u came in to my life
I feel so meaningful with the moment that u spend with me...
Although many problems had occur
But I will not 放弃 you
U also oh...

random...

juz finish all my assignment
hope tat i din miss out one of it...
yesterday keep rushing for de B&S
woke up at 7 den do...
haha...till 2pm jiu finish liao
fast leh?

haha...
actually i also dunno wat i write inside
juz write lots of craps
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dear my frenz...
i suddenly felt tat dis unisa life had become faster
i think we still left 3 weeks to exam
so everyone....
GAMBATEH....
start revision now...
as i know u guys will say
'too early lah!!!'
haha
see how deep i know u all...
blekx...
bb
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random....

juz finish my assigment

one more to go ----> B&S
dame boring de...

haix...
now i am alone again
also dunno wat's de purpose of sitting here
n come to campus today
bored bored bored
later go shooping --->alone
i enjoy shopping alone
no one will rush u
no one will giv comment on wat i am going to buy
la la la...
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haix...

so freaking tired...
omg
i am alone again
sitting alone in the computer lab
juz wish i can meet sumone else
so tat i can go for a breakfast with them
haix...
but now is 9.26am
no one come yet...

i am tired of dis already

i dun feel happy in these few days
hav a argue wit mom...
since sunday
which is her b'day n mother's day
i dunno wat happen to her
scold me early in de morning
so at the end
we din celebrate wit her
her cake is in de fridge...
how sad it is...
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one day
i will run out from de house
i think
if i dare enough
haha
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loneliness

nowdays
i use to be alone
doing work alone
assignment alone
eat alone...
i dislike de feeling of loneliness
but no choice
maybe it's a part of my life journey...

dis coming sunday will be Mother's day
also mom's b'day
haha
u know wat
yesterday when my bro tell her tat he is going to belanja her
she say she dun wan
she demand a gift set from Wah Chan Jewellery
omg...mom
she even show me the newspaper n choose which one she wan

kor...
hope tat u see dis...
mom wan jewellery set
not food
she say food she can belanja us wor...
funny rite...
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waiting for jeon n wan ru to come
later gt marketing presentation
y am i not waiting for chun how?
keke
i know he is here dy...
coz he stay in hostel....
juz pray tat later de presentation can be successfully done...
keke...

bye bye my blog....

random...

hey peeps...
dis is de first time i'm in baskin robbins wit so many ppl...

here gt chee hwa, guo jie, yi hawe n jeon--->de joker
haix
strees on assignment... =(
not feel like doing all dis work
juz wish tat i can hired one ppl to do all my work

juz now i hav lunch wit my ex-tbf classmate
miss these time...
keke

i am lazy
i am boring
i am useless
i am stupid
i am bad girl
i am rude

so many negative thing bout me...

random...

today....
i went to college quite early
though can join my fren
but they din go as early as me

haha
sitting alone in library
juz like a nerd
juz wonder y other also do de same wit me
keke

yesterday...
i went out to celebrate steph b'day
wit ah yoke n also jess

we went jogoya den go sing k
and we end station was in steph's house

her b'day is 2mrw...
juz wish her 2mrw la

i really feel de boredom when i hav no frens around me
i might be very quiet besides them
but i juz wan to companied them
i dun like to talk
haix

i seriously dislike uni life....

this moment...

actually
i am quite sad when i want to write dis blog

juz now
妈妈突然问我
你信不信佛教所说的
‘要以孝为先’
我说我信啊
他不相信

我真的很想他相信我
他一直很希望弟弟和哥哥可以关心他多一点
每一次我都有叫他们关心他
到最后还是我一个关心他
到刚才我才知道
我对他而言。。。并不重要
因为我是女的。。。
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儿子真的那么重要吗
女儿不是人吗？

每当他们跟你吵架时
你就会拿我发脾气
当我跟你吵时
你就对他们特别好
为什么？？？！！！！！！！

recent...

recently...
i keep rushing wit my assignments...
phew
juz finish two and many coming soon
no no no
i mean now...

i feel so tired wit it...
i dunno tat uni life is actually tougher than college life... T_T
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for those hu is in relationship...
izit wrong tat going out wit ex and u already hav one...?

因为爱情

给你一张过去的CD 听听那时我们的爱情 有时会突然忘了我还在爱着你 再唱不出那样的歌曲 听到都会红着脸躲避 虽然会经常忘了我依然爱着你 因为爱情 不会轻易悲伤 所以一切都是幸福的模样 因为爱情 简单的生长 依然随时可以为你疯狂 因为爱情 怎么会有沧桑 所以我们还是年轻的模样 因为爱情 在那个地方 依然还有人在那里游荡人来人往 再唱不出那样的歌曲 听到都会红着脸躲避 虽然会经常忘了 我依然爱着你 因为爱情 不会轻易悲伤 所以一切都是幸福的模样 因为爱情 简单的生长 依然随时可以为你疯狂 因为爱情 怎么会有沧桑 所以我们还是年轻的模样 因为爱情 在那个地方 依然还有人在那里游荡人来人往 给你一张过去的CD 听听那时我们的爱情 有时会突然忘了我还在爱着你 ----------------------------------------- i love dis song so much... maybe it is very meaningful for me for the one hu r in a relationship plz appreciate each other... =) for the one hu r ready to be in love plz think twice b4 u go for it... =) for the one hu r not ready yet plz choose wisely... =)

tired

nowdays...
i turns tired easily
maybe i am old dy...
haha

dis morning
when i was driving
my mind was blind
i dunno wat happen to me

still have many assign have to do
lazy

bye bye my blog
i think i won't update u in a short time

random...

now is year 2011
think bak to last year
wondering wat hav i done

i studied foundation in taylors
meet lots of fren
din study well
n...
tat's all
it kinda of waste time

i turn 19 dis year
haix
feel so old liao...(among wit my cousins la)

random...

dis week were the 3th week of mu uni life
still not use to it
dis week i had block lecture which requires me to stay till 7
haha
do u think i stay for it?
nope
haha
i think none of my frenz stay
except guo jie
he changes a lot
from hardworking to more hardworking
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tomorrow is ah yoke's b'day
ah yoke ah...
sorry wor
i can't celebrate wit u on saturday...
busy leh...

pic of us during form 4...

if i have not mistaken

love '爱情'

爱情
它是甜蜜的
当两个人在一起
可以互相为对方打气
可以互相支持
可以互相谅解
互相包容
互相扶持
这些都是幸福的

我不敢介入别人的恋情问题
因为我没有资格给任何意见
我有点讨厌自己的家
还有一个自以为事的妈妈
所有关于我的东西
她都想知道
但是如果她要知道
我就一定要告诉她
我一直没有勇气告诉她
我有了男朋友

妈
这不是一两天的事了
我已经拍拖21个月了
我真的希望有一天
如果我告诉你了
你可不可以不要拒绝我这段恋情
他是一个很疼我的人

他曾经对我说过
我是他一生中最爱的女人
他也说过我是一个很需要别人去保护的女生

上个星期
我向他提出了分手
我说
我累了
我不想再这样继续下去
因为我根本不值得你这样对我

他却拒绝了
他说
他不要分手
他说以后的事没有人会知道
为什么不等到以后再做打算呢

谢谢你这样的安慰我
也许我的恋情永远都是这样
不能公开
试过一次的公开
失败了
就不敢再试第二次

10.03.11

as i say yesterday
i fail to do it
i juz can stick to my plan
at the end
i din break up
so i am still couple with him

start to be tired

09.03.2011

today
may be a memorable day for me n him
i break up wit him juz now
i cried for a while but he cried so badly

i am so sorry to say tat to you
but i do agree wit my frenz
we are from diff planet
my mom will not agree we two together
sorry
sorry n sorry
plz dun cry any more

u say later u will call me
i dun know wat will u say
but i hope tat u won't ask me to stay wit u

i really feel tired
sorry
maybe i can't forget u now
but soon...i will
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i scare tat later i fail to control myself
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做 男 生 的 坏 处 ， 做 女 生 的 好 处

1、女生穿男生的衣服叫帅气，男生穿女生的衣服叫变态。

2、女生发脾气叫可爱，男生发脾气叫可恶。

3、女生流眼泪叫柔弱，男生流眼泪叫懦弱。

4、女生花男生钱是天经地义，男生花女生钱是天理不容。

5、女生打男生是撒娇，男生打女生是混蛋。

6、女生爱打扮是天生丽质，男生爱打扮是浪费时间。

7、女生受伤害时要男生来安慰，男生受伤害时要自己来安慰。

8、女生挥霍钱财是应该，男生挥霍钱财是败家。

9、女生不停地换男友是想找到自己真正的幸福，男生不停的换女友

是花心。

10、女生看到这日记会得意，男生看到这日记会伤悲

juz saw dis in facebook
the content is quite true...
haha
i am so lucky bcoz i am a girl...

random...

hi sunday....
now i am in my cousin house
using his com to blog
he is juz rite beside me...keke
dun look liao

another one come in
shout st me...
he was surprise tat i am using blog

today morning
i companied mom n dad to tesco
on the way bak
mom scolded me kau kau

bb

uni life

now i am uni-student
which takes UniSA subject-bachelors in commerce

get to meet lots of new frenz n also 2 old frenz

the new frenz are : wan ru n yue ni...
both of them were ching yi's fren

the old frenz are : x'nging n yann torng...
x'nging was my ex-kdu fren n yann torng was my primary classmate...
so surprise tat i can meet u 2...

today was the 2nd day of orientation
super boring but better than yesterday

but i still miss .6 class...
=)
i love the time when we were shouting together
share stories together
laughing together
play together
eat together
sing together
take pics together
hitting each other
n even scold each other

random...

skol gonna start soon
soon means when
monday lo

chee hwa sms my result to me at 11am
thkx hwa hwa

i gt C for eng n D for stats
quite ok la...for me

mom ask me to stay in the hostel
in the taylor's one
not outside the college
sumore she dun let me to drive if i stay in hostel
TT
i dun wan!!!
help me plz...ppl

random...

early in de morning
i go find him for a while
den both of us went to my aunt's employee house
we waited for 1 hour bcoz she went out
she apologized to us
she bought a lot of stuff for us to eat
at the end
we can't finish de food
not only both of us going
many ppl went there too

after eating
dey start to gamble
my bf win a lot
n my bro lost a lot
sry bro
my bf wins ur money

when the time reach 2.30
me n my bf went to desa parkcity to meet up his fren
after tat we went bak
dame tiring

for dis year's valentine's day
i wish all the couple will happy together
n i wish mine will be together forever
although i know mine won't come true

and lastly
HAPPY B'DAY TO CHUNG YI HAWE
sry for not attending ur b'day party
sry sry sry

busy...

i will be super busy in dis few days again
dunno why
after i come bak from korea
everything seems like going very fast
everything need to rush
mom is going to worry bout me again
she say i look so pale n tired
oh no
i need rest
but not dis week...
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sry to yi hawe n my classmate
i think i can't make it on dis sunday
u know
it is very hard for me to go out with my bf
it goes same to u all
it is very hard for me to go out with u all
sry
i think i am the person who love bf more than frenz
sry sry n sry
hope tat i will see u all again on the orientation or sooner
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valentine's day coming
any suggestion on de gift?
other than perfumes, watches...
anything else?

frenz...

frenz...wat does it mean to me?

friends...
dey are all good to me
love me
care bout me
help me
n some may understand me
when i think bak
from secondary one onwards in KDU
i am fren with nicole, dulcie, jessica, ethel n yun xiin
although i change skol when i was secondary 4 to sri bestari
dey still remember me n i do so

when i reach sri bestari...
my best frenz are jess, stephanie n yoke poh
i also fren with fionna, soke ling n evonne

while when i reach college...
dey become my frenz now...
ching yi, vui yuan, sit, yew chung, steven, guo jie, chee hwa, liang hui,yi hawe n frenki...
although yi hawe was my secondary skolmate...but we become closer when we r in college...

when i think bak the time tat i spend with u all
i will cry (sometime)
i will also laugh
when will i meet u all again my frenz

-PS- dun cry after u all read dis yea...
keke

sad...

people...
i am back from korea
i lost my cameea in korea
dame sad now
no pics to upload
haix
i wan my camera back
no mood to write liao

busy...

due to CNY
i become super busy in my aunt's shop
hate to go there
but have to

tmr will be de last day of work
after tat i will be off to KOREA
ysy...!!!

still haven pack my luagage yet
lazy... =(
i miss my classmate
i miss skol time
i miss taylor...not really lo

emo....

start to realize tat i can easily become emo
haha
dunno y
i dun like crowded place
i juz like to be alone
i dun like to share ppl my thing
but i like to listen to ppl's story
i dun like to talk
but i like to listen

still remember when i was form 4 n 5 in ssb
ah yoke always say tat i hav 自闭症
ok...i admit it
i am juz a good listener
so stop asking me to talk more
you know who u r loh...

2mrw will be de last exam test
also last day of foundation
i will miss u all =)

random

goin to hav exam in half an hour time
so nervous bcoz i din prepare for it
haha
it gonna be 2 hours n 45 mins exam
english exam
gonna write two essay...
gosh
forgot how to write essay dy
only remember how to write blog
no format
no content
keke

20/01/11...a memorable day

on 20/01/11
our class had a class trip
we start to plan this one week before
at the end
we hav the conclusion to go TAMAN PERTANIAN
actually
it can be quite fun wit de bicycle
but when we reach there
the bicycles were out of stock
hav to wait for another 42 people
so we decided to walk around it
although we din manage to walk the whole area
but we still feel happy coz i think dis was the 1st time we spend the most time together
(sry to them coz i din follow them to sepang)
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things tat i wan to let you all know
1. i miss you all
2. i want you all to miss me too
3. i dun want to separate with you all
4. i think we can be best fren forever
5. i am glad to fren with you all
6. if i hav a choice, i will still pick you all as my best fren
7. if i hav a chance, i will ask the god to stop the moment when we were all together

haha...so many things to speak it out
but overall
it seems the same
keke

random

haha...
goin to start a blog wit the title 'random' again...
juz dunno wat to write but i still feel like entering my blog...
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to my dearest frenz...(many of u all lah)
i do appreciate our friendship n i will remember all of u
although there will be some misunderstanding btw us...
but it din affect our friendship much

wat am i writing
haha...i also dunno
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today might be the last time we sing k together
but i hope tat it won't come true
i juz wan us to be together always
when we were in the degree programmes...
plz dun ignore each other when we pass by
plz contact each other always
sound like i am goin to die soon
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i juz dun like the feeling when we have to say goodbye
urh...

错的人。。。

今天。。。
我又一个人傻傻的在车里等你
整整等了两个钟半
还以为自己可以当什么都每发生过
原来是不可以的

我一直逼自己不去生气
我做到了
但是到最后。。。还是忍不住发了点脾气

我在想。。。
我们是否还适合在一起
这几天都是你把我弄得不知道该怎么好

你可以告诉我到底还可以做些什么
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明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
　但是我还是相信只是煎熬
　朋友都劝我不要不要
　不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
　但是做人已经那么累
　假惺惺的想要逃
　在爱里连真心都不能给
　这才真的真正的可笑
　爱得太真 太容易 让自己牺牲
　太容易让自己沉沦
　太容易 不顾一切 满是伤痕
　我太笨 明知道你是错的人
　明知道这不是缘分
　但是我还奋不顾身
　但我相信有点可能
　可能 在爱里面这样算笨
　可能 永远没有所谓永恒
　但是我 不愿放弃这里面一点点可能
　宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

free day...

i was quite free today...(actually)
but
i hav to fetch my cousin to college today
today was his 1st day
haix
boring
luckily gui jie come early

we are having our reading n listening test now
GUO JIE, YI CHEN, YI HAWE, KENNETH N PING ZHEN...
super boring lo

waiting for the time to come
later i will hav speaking test at 1.00pm
hope tat i will pick an easy one
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bb

sunday...

it's sunday...
hate to wake up so early...
nut no choice
hav to company mom to buy things...
dis is the first time my younger brother following
haha...
see wat will happen later
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juz finish seeing yew chung's blog n vui yuan's blog
it's quite true when dey say we all juz started to be very close
n it only left 2 weeks for our foundation year
all of us will not go in a same degree...
T_T
feeling to cry now...

CHING YI, VUI YUAN, YEW CHUNG, STEVEN @ ENG KEE, GUO JIE, CHEE HWA, LIANG HUI, YI HAWE, SIT @ EI CHOCK...
i will sure remember you all...
thankx for the happy moment tat we had together...
haha...
sound so sad!!!
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sianx...

damn sianx now...
haix...
plan to attend the morning class
but...till the end...i went to lab to complete the spss

gui jie n ah sit are here with me in lab...
haha
guo jie keep watching manga...
sit mei you dong xi zuo
so geng le
ah sit keep watching me typing dis blog
gonna write bad thing bout him

ah sit (SIT EI CHOCK)
a tall guy
one year older than me..haha (so sory to mention it out)
came from sabah...(punctual on goin bak coz his gf is there)
erm...hate attend lecture
know how to cook (wow...so good de)
be de 1st to go bak after class (to look after his diamond...last time is gold)
by the way...i thik he is a nice guy
n friendly
n...erm...nothing to say liao

haha...ah sit
went u go google type ur full name...
i think u will found dis blog

luck...

wish me a very good luck in my oral presentation 2...
haix...
so nervous now
help me plz

liew ching yi!!!
where r u???
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every one of us need lucks...
but it depend on how well u work on it...
kekex...
sound so true

accident

yesterday...
i was involve in one accident
total 7 cars bang together
n i was the last one
i'm not sure tat whether i should be happy with it or not
when i call my mom
she try to calm me down by asking me not cry
but when i went back
she scolded me n say all is my fault
at the end she bring me to police station to make a report
haiz...

r there any rules tat say if u drive 80km/j...
u can't srive on the fast lane...
no right?
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2 more weeks to exam...
stress n stress n stress...
i dislike 2011 dy...
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appreciate...

good morning to my blog...
wow...appreciate..

two more weeks to exam dy...
after the exam...all of us will be seperate...
i dun wan this come so fast...
right? ( all my classmate n ming shuen )

when we come to the last sem...
everyone of us will be like'haiz...i dun wan the time to go so fast'
when we come to the last sem...
our frenship seems better...y izit like tat huh?...
haha
i also dun know why...
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GOODBYE THE SADDEST WORD...

ppl...plz ignore the mama...n change it to 'fren'...ok?
this is a quiet meaningful song tat i can use to symbolize my feeling when i need to say goodbye to you all...keke...gan dong ba?

moody...

today...
i was not feeling well
going to be sick dy...
tired of assignment...finally done with one(journal 2)


dis is my favourite photo in PD

random post

now i start to realise tat most of my posts are with the title 'RANDOM'
haha
i dun know y...

sem 3 ady...
still dun hab the mood to study n do assignment...
started to be lazy like sem 2...
haix...gambateh ah cheau shin
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this few days...i felt so tired on the relationship
i am so scared tat i will not able to move on...
T_t
everytime i went to find u...
u like not bother to see me for a longer time...
u changed...but u din admit it...
i know most of the guy will not admit it...
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in dis whole new year...2011
i will promise ti myself:

1. pass in all the exam n get in to degree progarm
2. give myself a break if dis relationship can't maintain longer
3. concentrate in class n not skipping any class
4. control the money spend...(so hard)
5. try to be kinder( more kind )
6. treat frens better than sumone...

tat's all lah...
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i am so so so tired...!!!