100th post

dis will be my 1ooth post...
how long hav i been writing dis blog?
y i start dis n when?
i really hav no idea bout it...

nowdays...
i was busy with college n work
evryday hav to rush here n there
even when i was in college
my customers will call me...but i will try to ignore them ( rite?ching yi )

hmmm...on de christmas...i companied both my parents to midvally n the garden mall
there are big sales but with lots of ppl
so i was not able to buy anything... :(
after tat v went YUZU to hav dinner wit my brothers...
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for dis coming new year eve...
i think i can't make it to 'look out point' la
so sry to my classmate... :(
busy wit works
n on the new year...i need to go to PORT DICKSON
hate it!!!
super sianx de...
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bye bye my blog
n happy 100th post to my blog
so long din receive any comment liao
giv comment plz...
tq

happy winter solstice day...???

haha...i found this when i translate the chinese word '冬至' into english with google
i never know tat actually it is call winter solstice festival...

yesterday i already ate the glutinous rice ball a.k.a tang yuan
mom make it my brother actually bcoz he wan to eat

today...as usual we hav 4 hours bvreak n v plan to sing k...
haha...kenneth can sing actually...?!

after the bst class...we was so random to plan making tang yuan
it actually is my first time to celebrate dis fsetival with fren...
but i feel so sry to them bcoz i din make it
i juz company them to buy the ingredients n chicken rice
the anty who sells chicken rice is so kind...she gave us free tang yuan n ice-cream
i love her so so so much

2 more days to christmas...
yay!!!
i wan present from santa claus!!!

my only wish - britney spears

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Oh yeah yeah...
Last night I took a walk in the snow,
Couples holdin hands, places to go,
Seems like everyone but me is in love
Santa can you hear me?
I signed my letter that I sealed with kiss,
I sent it off, it just said this:
"i know exactly what I want this year"
Santa can you hear me?
I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me, someone to hold,
Maybe maybe,
He’ll be all my own in a big red bow
Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing,
Tell me my true love is here
He’s all I want, just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I’ll be waiting here
Santa that’s my only wish this year

Yeahh...
Christmas eve, I just can’t sleep
Would I be wrong for takin a peek
Cuz I heard that you’re comin to town
Santa can you hear me?
I really hope that you’re on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Oh please make my wish come true,
Santa can you hear me?
I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me, someone to hold
Baby, baby, baby
We’ll be all alone under the mistletoe
Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year,
All I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He’s all I want, just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I’ll be waiting here
Santa that’s my only wish this year

I hope my letter reaches you in time, (oh yeah)
Bring me love I can call all mine (oh yeah)
Cuz I have been so good this year, (oh oh)
Can’t be alone under the mistletoe,
He’s all I want in a big red bow.

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He’s all I want, just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I’ll be waiting here,
Santa that’s my only wish this year
Ahh ahh ahh
Oh santa, can you hear me...?
Oh santa, well he’s all I want
Just for me, underneath my christmas tree
I’ll be waiting here,
Santa that’s my only wish this year
Santa that’s my only wish this year.

sem 3...

today is the 1st day of sem 3...
all of us was so curious about the timetable coz the taylor din post up till juz now...
dey jus posted up

guo jie sms me dis morning at 7.40
he say maybe the class start at 8
i rush and almost bang call
i reach college at 8.30
we went divisional office to get timetable
our class start at 12

mom asked me y i go so early
haix...
now at library dame sianx
want to sleep liao
sumore later english class
more sianx lo...
T-T

zzZZ wan to sleep now...!!!

juz hope tat my result for dis sem will be better...
god bless me...

bye bye
go sleep now

random

i am having exam dis week
it end on thursday



ming shuen is with me now...
she is dame freaking nervous...
till keep refering to her bcp notes...
haha
jus take it easy la...sa po



dis few days...
i feel tat actually i am not happy to wat i hav now...
everything seems boring n unchange...

i am tired with my life...
y my anty always like that de leh?
she like to drink beer
when she is drunk...she will start to speak out her real word
mom is not happy wit it all de time
when she speak it out so badly...my mom will not talk to her
she will apologize to my mom when she found out tat my mom dun talk to her
haiz...wat kind of ppl is this???
dun try be act good liao la...

jess n shin b'day celebration

thanks a lot to steph n ah yoke...
love u two so much

i love de cd de most...
i wish tat we are frenz forever although we are not in de same college...

b'day...

yesterday was my big day...
my 18th b'day...

i received more than 100wishes in facebook n more than 30wishes in phone
thkx for ur wishes...

i was quite happy when i was in college...
1st: in de morning, ching yi n ming shuen companied me to eat japanese food in ss15, de foods were quite nice la...

2nd:after de english presentationm me n my classmate go wongkok to eat(purpose:to have a free drink) tq for de snacks...

3rd:b4 me n ching yi go wongkok with others, nicole called me...i waited her in crispy popiah about 15minutes but i din see anything... she said someone will tap me...so i wait n wait n wait...
ching yi noticed ethel 1st n i notice nicole besides her...
i really love them two so much...
i love u two...n de present too... (ps:i still keep de cake in de fridge)

4th:i skipped moral class to celebrate with him...
but...we din celebrate it...
he asked me whether izit ok if i follow him back to kuala selangor to get his brother's car...
i dun have de choice to say no...it takes 1.5hours to go there...but when we come back...it takes 1hour...
at de way back to kl...i drove my own car n follow his car...

by de time reached kl, it was already 9.30p.m...
i dun like eating anymore although i was very hungry....i knew he was too...
so at de end...we din celebrate...

5th:i rushed back to home, i reached home at 10.00p.m.
my older brother n mom waited for me to cut de cake
but my younger bro n dad still haven come back..
i said i wan to wait for them but my mom said no need
i asked her to sing de b'day song for me...but she said i am big enough n it is not necessary to sing b'day song...
i sang myself n my older bro follow...

"happy b'day to me,
happy b'day to me,
happy b'day to Cheau Shin,
happy b'day to me..."

i was quite sad after i finish de song...i blow de invisible candle bcoz dey din light it up for me...
i told my bro i dun wan to cut de cake...till my younger bro n dad came back, only i cut de cakes...
my b'day ended with unhappiness...
i told my older brother than i dun wan to cut cakes anymore in my b'day...

for those hu read my dis post: i am not emo...i juz felt sad...isn't de b'day girl should be happy all day...but y i am not???

心疼

juz now, my mom called me to go in her room...

she say she feel very dissapointed with her children: me, my older bro n my younger bro...
and even my dad too

now my dad having a kind of illness,
it somehow like a panic illness, he get nervous when we mention a single bad word
i am getting worried bout it
sometimes i felt tired on it...

while to both of my brother,
hope tat u all will try to listen to mama for this few year
she is getting weaker n weaker
juz so scare tht one day
i hav to live without her
although she is quiet annoying

to myself,
she say she thought daughter will be better than son
but she found out it was the same
mama, i am different from them la,ok?
y r u not trust me?
i try to achieve everything u wan me to achieve
when u say no, i juz keep quite and walk off
u seldom say yes to my wants...
u r too contolling me
n i dislike it
but, did i tell dis to u b4
no rite?
i will juz keep in deep in my heart

n stop saying that u wan to dis
wan to die
wan to die
ur thoughts are wrong
u thought if u die, everything will be settle down
but
do u think it is as easy as u think ?

i was always be the one that u wan to scold(althought i din do anything wrong)
i was always the only one that u call to tell things that u dun wan ppl to listen
n
i was always the one that make u proud
do u even think bout it?

ma...
please la...
i do love u...

unfairness...

in my mind...
there is always a word tat exist when my mom start to scold me
when i do wrong she scold me
when my brother do wrong, she scold me
when her mood is not good, i kena tembak...

i tried my best to achieved watever she want
but...
she always want she to achieve more that she wants...
i start to feel very tired bout dis
although my dad love me
but she mom dun

every time i will complain to my dad
and he will say
'nevermind la, she is like tat one...'
she gave me a strong feeling tat she prefer son den daughter...

watever my bro have
i won't
i mean
freedom...money...love...concorn...and many many more...

mom, i am very tired of dis...
i hope tat one day...
u will treat me like how u treat ah kor n ah di di...

i start to be very jealous when my fren's parents treat them the same
they look very happiness...

random...

hi to my blog...
long time never update already...
nowdays...
i prefer to read other ppl's blog rather than update my blog...

in dis few days...
many incidents had happen...

there are too much off unhappiness...
T.T
which is btw me n him...

fun...

yippi...

now i am in college's computer lab...

it is all 'apple' computer...

me, ching yi, sit, steven n yew chung was here since 5 minutes ago...

we start to find out the solution of using it

it's different from other's com n my lap...

haha....

bye bye my blog...

random....

yesterday...
i fall down in my room after bath....
i cried so loud but no one can hear it...
my head got bang to the bed
n my leg n hand hurt too...
my head is super pain n i went to told my dad

he is reading newspaper
when i told him....
he juz keep quiet...

after that....i decide to tell my mom...
her reaction made me laugh....
she say..."y?"
den she ask my dad to check whether my head got blood or not
den dey ask me no to go college today...
but i am in college now...hahax

hope tat my head won't be like so painful anymore....

now...
i start to wonder...
why everytime when i update my blog...
it's all about my relationship wit my bf...

dis time also de same...

we argue yesterday
at the end...
he say bye to me and i start to cry
i feel so tired bout him
i thought he will call me again
but when i check my phone today
not even a missed call n message is from him

but i drove to skol juz now
my mind was all bout him
n i almost cry
i drove dame slow today...

now...
i have nothing to do...
so boring...
n i miss him so much

it's complicated....

yesterday was my mom's b'day....
wish her happy b'day...

today is mother's day...
wish her happy mother's day too...

everything or festival that is related to her...
i wish her 'happy' always....
but when i want something that can really make me happy
she won't allow...

today,
i company her go shopping...
B called me,
n she ask hu is it...
i said there is a guy that wan me to couple with him
den she start to ask...
how i know him?
is he rich?
bla bla bla n bla....
at last she doesn't agree with it...

she say y u dun wan to get a richer one...?
or get a better one...?

i am getting heahache now...
i start to cry when she say the word...'NO...'
i tried to figure out how am i going to tell B tat my mom dun agree with us

last time i asked him...
if one day my parent does not agree with us den how?
he said he wan me to follow wat my parents say...
if my parents wan to to break up...
i must listen to them...

i pass dis incedent before...
it is so painful
and dis time
i dub wan dis to happen again,,,
B....how am i going to handle dis...?

can someone tell me how to do?
please!!!!

it's complicated

I hate de feeling of argueing with him...
i will definately cry after tat...
i cried yesterday n also today
he is always busy with his work
but last time he can handle it very well
started from 1 month after v together
he pretend to change
i dun know why it is happening

last time
no matter how busy or how tired he is
he will call me or sms me or even buy food for me

but now
he din call me
din sms me
n
keep asking for apologize
i am very tired wit dis

i told my brother tat i will break up with him soon
but he say y?
coz dey say he treat me very good

yay..!

Today is my 1st day of 2nd week of college life...
Now i have more friends....

-Lavenia from Sabah....(so far...!!!)

-Ming Shuen from Puchong...(it is near to college...)

&

-Tracy from Cameron Highlands...(she like to eat strawberrys....)
kekex...

Now i found tat it is fun when u makes friends in college...

random...

I knew that i din update my blog like more that 2/3 weeks already

There are too many things happened this week...

-I had started my college life in Taylors Lakeside....

--I had to drive my own to college...

---My anty's frenz found out that I have a bf...so

---I had change my relationship status in fb to single...and yoke poh likes it...

random...

Going to college soon...
I am going to Taylor(lakeside)...
See u there...Ethel!!!
Kekex...

Last Friday i went to Niicole's house...

with B...

many of my frenz(KDU-ians) change a lot...

most of them can drive already....

me too...

i am getting a new car...

i have no idea wat car am i going to get...

i miss freedom...

i wanna go out everynight wit fren...!!!!!

Freedom!!!!!!!

finally....

haix...
finally mom allow me to buy a new laptop....
T_T....i miss my old laptop....